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November 1, 2004

Restless

I know, you probably don't get moods like this, but sometimes i just feel like making major changes in my life, you know?
The people I talk with, things I do.. just retreat into my own self. It just seems so tempting at times to just shut down and vegetate... well, maybe not "vegetate" but again, that idea of change.I just feel restless. Want more than I am getting from life but don't quite know how to accomplish that.
I try to think back to times I've been happy before but when I fall into the trap of trying to recreate the past with "old friends" it ususally turns into an uncomfortable mess and I end up regretting even bothering to try.
Maybe I do that because the past is familiar? I've been there before, I know what happens, it seems safer somehow. But dealing with the unknown is a lot trickier, it's all veiled and shadowy and there's little clue as to what lies behind the doors there.I just feel restless, there has to be more to life than this.

Posted by Lalo at 5:13 PM | Comments (1)