Informational Motivatons?

Is this possible? It’s just after midnight and I’m feeling hungry, and even started thinking about what to eat. Cottage cheese, hamburger, cheese sandwich, salad, ginger snap, fish stick, Soup, potato? I just couldn’t figure it out, but then the show I was watching ended and a Nutrisystem commercial came on with a woman who lost 142 lbs. Her photos looked like me, except she’s actually smaller than me, 142 lbs would still put me at just under 400 lbs! It’s a long haul, but it’s got to be possible if it’s possible for other people. I liked the fact that one woman had even checked into the lap band and bypass surgeries but decided against it. I don’t want to go under the knife and to be honest it’s not something I have the funds to do anyways. I don’t have health insurance just like millions of other people in America. I often think if we had the funds I’d do Nutrisystem, but then I also think, why not be able to do this on my own. I believe the biggest hurdle for me has been the “Believability” of being able to lose weight, especially the great amounts I have to lose. Sometimes I think I should write into a show or something because if I could lose weight it would inspire others, but if I do on my own I’ll inspire myself and that means more than inspiring others. How do I inspire anyone else if I myself am not inspired? So now about twenty minutes later and the commercial’s still on. I won’t be eating tonight. Hearing the stories from these people is like listening to myself in many ways. They talk about the mean things people have said about their weight, or what they eat. Just seeing them beam about how their lives have changed so incredibly is inspirational. They talk about their feelings etc. Well instead of snacking or making a meal, I’m going to go to bed. I want to see myself in a size less than 14 minus rolls, jowls and big ham-like arms and thighs I am ready for bed and dreams of the smaller me, and a much happier me. I can’t wait to see how low I can go. Tomorrow’s a new day and a new me…with each passing minute in fact!

Posted by ijellorca on July 25, 2007 12:38 AM | DIGG | del.icio.us | furl