Looking back…

It’s not lost on me that I started posting here a while back with other more pressing (Under Pressure!) issues in my life. I can see my progress hasn’t been stellar, or even hmm, progress. Each day that I get up my thoughts are on limbering up and stretching and exercising and making my body feel better when it tries to move, bend, step or exercise! Life just has to be better than not fitting into your life, or your skin, or your car! Let’s just say it’s too tight of a fit for me to feel comfortable.

I am noticing the change though. As I traverse the stairs I don’t have to hold the railing as much. I don’t hunch over or stop on each landing for a little sit-down or rest. My right knew remains somewhat stiff, but the squats and the aerobics are loosening that up too. I might start keeping track of my crunches so that I can increase that too. I haven’t been doing them every day but I don’t really see why I shouldn’t. My abdomen, and illiacs really need it.

Today I really wanted an eggo waffle with butter and syrup. I went into the kitchen and as I started cleaning up last night’s dished decided to make up some tuna. I chopped up some red bell peppers, onions, grapes, and celery and mixed it up. I started the day with a protein shake and then a few hours later had the tuna. Great protein. Since I didn’t have the popcorn last night, (I had a protein shake and the 100 calorie pack of Oreo thins instead) I’ll pop some up early or late afternoon and eat on that most of the evening with a possible protein shake later tonight. I’m finding that I get full quicker, but I’m eating more often. I’ll be honest I seem to be feeling the need for a nap each afternoon, not sure what that’s all about. I thought it was writing late at night but last night I went to bed before 2AM. Hmm, we’ll see what happens tomorrow.

Weight was the same today, as expected but not up. Blood pressure’s down a bit, good. I’m feeling my muscles (the little dears) again. Being aware of myself physically as well as on all levels is feeling nice. I’m actually becoming my passion again; I sure am hoping to be there still and even further in another month or so. Just the other day I was brushing my hair and thinking I really love my hair and the way it ringlets out when I twist it. I’m loving it more and more. It used to be I just wanted to shave it all off but I’m seeing myself in a whole new light, I’m seeing my self worth for real this time. I’m so glad I’m me, even as an obese person. (For the moment obese anyways) Time to git! I’m not sure if I’ll be able to post later, got some serious cleaning to do today, including the carpets. Woo hoo more exercise!

154/82 BP 82 pulse ~ down -00 ~ Total Lost 018 ~ 398 till Goal

Posted by ijellorca on July 20, 2006 11:30 AM | DIGG | del.icio.us | furl