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April 25, 2006
Sentimental Lady
That’s exactly what I am today, sentimental.
Listening to the XM 70’s channel and hearing all these memories from when I was ages 7 to 17. I vacillate between tears of reflection and tears of an unfulfilled life! Amazing how music can set you straight and make you think while TV just numbs you up and makes you comatose! Scary.
Sly and the Family Stone’s “Family Affair” and Stevie Wonder’s “Superstitious” all these songs that can pinpoint my exact age, my feelings, the scents, colors and even weather of my memories!
I looked in the mirror. I’m not beautiful anymore. I used to be cute. I touched my face and the high cheekbones of my Native American heritage are hidden completely from sight! The beauty of my Southern African American heritage is completely hidden as well. The strength of my Great Great Grandmother, a Welsh woman born of a New York Missionary who braved it all and ran away to be with my Great Great Grandfather a mixed slave in Canada because they loved one another joins the hidden in my face. I can barely see any family resemblance to my family let alone the "Me" I used to know. I don’t like the way I feel or fit my skin I hate it.
Sister Sledge’s “We are Family” – ‘Have faith in you and the things you do,’ great line and I definitely need to have faith in is my ability to get back to being balanced and I’m so far from that right now!
I want to see my cheekbones again.
Sentimental Lady
Written by Bob Welch.
You are here and warm
But I could look away and you’d be gone
Cause we live in a time
When meaning falls in splinters from our lives
And that’s why I’ve traveled far
Cause I come so together where you are
And all of the things that I said that I wanted
Come rushing by in my head when I’m with you
14 joys and a will to be merry
And all of the things that we say are very
Sentimental gentle wind
Blowing through my life again
Sentimental lady
Gentle one
Now you are here today
But easily you might just go away
Cause we live in a time
When paintings have no color, words don’t rhyme
And that’s why I’ve traveled far
Cause I come so together where you are
And all of the things that I said that I wanted
Come rushing by in my head when I’m with you
14 joys and a will to be merry
And all of the things that we say are very
Sentimental gentle wind
Blowing through my life again
Sentimental lady
Gentle one
You are here and warm
But I could look away and you’d be gone
Cause we live in a time
When meaning falls in splinters from our lives
And that’s why I’ve traveled far
Cause I come so together where you are
Yes and all of the things that I said that I wanted
Come rushing by in my head when I’m with you
14 joys and a will to be merry
And all of the things that we say are very
Sentimental gentle wind
Blowing through my life again
Sentimental lady
Gentle one
Sentimental gentle wind
Blowing through my life again
Sentimental lady
Gentle one
Sentimental gentle wind
Blowing through my life again
Sentimental lady
Gentle one
Well sentimental gentle wind
Blowing through my life again
Sentimental lady
Gentle one
Posted by ijellorca on April 25, 2006 8:44 AM | DIGG | del.icio.us | furl
Oh Tonya, Thank you for commenting. Someday I hope that mirrors will no longer be the ENEMY! I wish you reconciliation with your spirit, mind and body! To your health, I raise a bottle of water! Ij
Just in case it didn't show right, Tonya, I am the one doing this blog. Ij
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I understand exactly how you feel. Sometimes I look in the mirror and wonder when did I put on so much weight? It is a lifetime struggle. I wish you luck with your weight loss.
Tonya