CREATING THE CONSCIOUSNESS THAT BIRTHS GREAT GOOD

Just started a Center for Spiritual Living (CSL) online study group. It’s a 7/8-week study called “CREATING THE CONSCIOUSNESS THAT BIRTHS GREAT GOOD”

It’s wonderful at this strange crossroad of my life. I try to work on a business and get thwarted by my partner’s inability to get his side of the business done. I wanted to attend “A COURSE IN MIRACLES” but didn’t have the money to attend every week. I know they said I didn’t have to pay if I couldn’t afford it but at the time it made me feel more self-conscious. I’ve thought more and more about returning to college but I can’t imagine what I’d do that sets me up for a career I want more than being a writer. Besides that I’m not really ready for a battery of student loans to drag me into debt with no appreciable income at this time. My physical shape is also something I’m struggling with constantly. Which path to take, and the needed commitment to achieve my journey, I never seem to trust my decisions myself lately. I’ve made strides self-esteem wise; I no longer have to see a therapist. I’m on my own and trying to make a way outside of my self-depreciative ways. This study will be a great guidance! Homework is reflective and requires at least 10 minutes of meditation every day, keeping a journal, and prayer for the other members in the group! How could I not participate?

Today when I meditated, EPIPHANY! I realized that I want to create an affirmation to stop “second guessing” myself. I decided that everything I do and say from now on is exactly what I need to do for my intended path. I decided that who I am embodies the Holy Spirit that guides me even when I can’t clearly see the outcome for my higher self. With God in charge the decisions I make can only be about my highest good! If I eat a slice of ham or drink a protein shake or fast then it’s what I need to do for me physically and spiritually at the moment. Seek Ye first the Kingdom of God, as I do and shall for the rest of my days and therefore I’m doing what’s best and I can stop doubting my intentions and most importantly my path and journey; I’m on it! That was a deeply moving and warm realization for me to have!

I’ll be journaling here through my class. I’ve been a wee bit behind on journaling lately because I’m working diligently on my writing and the research for it. I feel totally alive!

Posted by ijellorca on April 5, 2006 10:45 AM | DIGG | del.icio.us | furl