Do I feel different? Hell Yes!

I feel lighter, wiser, and extremely invested in change and the care taking of this vessel that God gave me!

Last night I slept fine, there’s still a little restlessness from having an acidic state but I feel rested. Began the day going out with the dogs, Meditating with my sweetie on our goals, downed 32 ounces of water and then the “Walk away the pounds” workout video. My legs are totally tingling and soon I’ll take in a piece of fruit for breakfast.

We’ve a huge windstorm with incredible gusts of winds and again I’ve the window open to blow out the old air of this heart and home.

I called my sweetie after the workout and asked him if I’d ever told him that I have great legs. He said no honey you always talk about your legs in a bad way. I said well those days are over, the next time you see me you’ll see how great my legs are!

I can change my body shape; I can do all I choose to do just by declaring it. I wrote on my TV

I Am 130
I Am Bestseller
I Am Mother

And I’ll write it on the dreaded mirror in the bathroom so that when I do look at it I’ll see who I want to be as who I am with these positive statements instead of accepting that the current façade of my body as my truth. My truth is that I am 130 lbs, I am a Best-selling author, and I am a great mother of two children with my sweetie!

I’m going to do the Walk away the pounds at noon and again this evening. Why not? I feel energetic and rejuvenated. I think about that awful 4th night of the fast when I felt so low and inadequate and overwhelmed how easy it would have been to quit the fast then. I would have felt all hope was lost and incapable of controlling myself in any way. But since I went another day I feel that I am able to push past my breaking point! That’s an incredible feeling and a tool I’m going to keep with me as I continue on in my health struggles. I survived the night, spiritually and physically and I have theView image
photograph, and newfound confidence to prove it!

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