Six down 381 to go…

And I believe I’ll be able to breath in the beautiful mountain air! Sigh!

134 more hours till the end of the Daniel Fast. Last night around Midnight my stomach almost seemed to ache but I just stayed under my blankies and hoped sleep would come sooner. I dropped off around 1:30 AM but felt no hunger when I got moving this morning. Finally took the dogs downstairs and the cool air felt refreshing. I don’t believe I’ll workout this morning, maybe later. I just feel like I’m in a subtle smooth comfortable fog. I prayed a lot last night for simply everyone, and their healing as well, yes including the whole world. Initially I woke up early around 5 or 6 AM I believe and started my prayers again for my internal healing. I prayed for a fertile womb for the safe and healthy delivery of a baby between my sweetie and I.

Today I hope to get major reading and writing in.

I’m looking forward to changes in my body after a 7-day digestive vacation. I haven’t ingested anything yet, including water. My lips are pretty dry and a little chapped but otherwise I feel okay. I don’t have a headache, but then I’ve never experienced that on a fast. I’ve never fasted for 7 days straight though. I’ve fasted for 4 days broke the fast and then started again for another couple days but that’s not the same. Even though I haven’t ingested anything I still have used the restroom. Today it was more bile than anything. I think that has more to do with the body utilizing the fat stores for energy. Bile is generally used to break down fat. The creepy thing about fasting, according to what I’ve read, is you break down even “old” fat deposits from years ago! I guess as you put on more fat you just store it on top of the old fat and so on and so on. So all the toxins you had in the old fat from years ago get released as it’s broken down! DISGUSTING! That fact in of itself ought to make me not want to eat ever again, but so far it hasn’t stopped my negative behavior completely.

I know I’ve changed quite a lot about my eating regime and most of it is quite healthy and the weight has been coming off slowly but surely. My cravings have subsided on quite a lot of unhealthy things. Even plain old condensed canned soup doesn’t seem appetizing anymore now that I cook from scratch all the time. My soups are better and salt free most of the time and almost fat free except for a little Extra virgin olive oil. My skin is extremely dry so I need a little oil in my diet. I’ve become so much more accustomed to spices and herbs that those flavors are what I crave more than food when I get hungry during this fast.

When I feel really hungry or my stomach seems to ache, I hear a voice telling me all these sabotaging things:

1. You can start the fast tomorrow
2. Just bake a potato with nothing on it that’s not fattening
3. Who will know anyways
4. If you eat just a tiny bit it will assuage your hunger and that’s okay, no one will fault you for that.
5. If you don’t want the potato try ___________
6. You’ve made it this far and that’s good enough
7. You don’t even know anyone who’s fasted for 4 days so don’t be so hard on yourself
8. Seven days is forever!!!
9. It’s not good to go without eating it’s ruining your metabolism
10. Do you want to get sick?
11. Just eat something, a piece of fruit

Sad really sad when your ego or whatever it’s called puts so much energy and investment in thwarting what you want to do that’s good for you. The fast isn’t about losing weight; it’s about healing my cravings, my heart and mind about my body, my eating issues, and me. 7 days is nothing compared to the 40 Jesus did. I’ve read about several people who have done this 40-day fast and I’m in total awe of their strength and dedication and discipline. The fortitude of a Disciple! This is something I hope to do in my future down the road when my body’s more healthy and strong. I can just imagine the spiritual uplifting that would course through a person’s veins doing such a humbling act of faith. Reminds me of Mariah Carey’s Song on the emancipation of Mimi album:

Fly like a bird
By Mariah Carey


Verse 1

(Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning, trust him.)
Somehow I know that

There’s a place up above

With no more hurt and struggling

Free of all atrocities and suffering

Because I feel the unconditional love
From one who cares enough for me

To erase all my burdens

And let me be free to

Chorus

Fly like a bird

Take to the sky

I need You now Lord

Carry me high

Don’t let the world break me tonight

I need the strength of You by my side

Sometimes this life can be so cold

I pray You’ll come and carry me home

Verse 2

Can we recover

Will the world ever be

A place of peace and harmony

With no war and with no brutality

If we loved each other

We would find victory

But in this harsh reality

Sometimes I’m so despondent

That I feel the need to

Chorus 2

Fly like a bird

Take to the sky

I need You now Lord

Carry me high

Don’t let the world break me tonight

I need the strength of You by my side

Sometimes this life can be so cold

I pray You’ll come and carry me home

Bridge

(He said he’ll never forsake you or leave you alone, trust him.)
Keep your head to the sky

With God’s love you’ll survive

Outro

Fly like a bird

Take to the sky

I need You now Lord

Carry me high

Don’t let the world break me tonight

I need the strength of You by my side

Sometimes this life can be so cold

I pray You’ll come and carry me home

Carry me higher, higher, higher

Carry me higher, higher, higher

Carry me home

Higher Jesus

Carry me higher Lord

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