I'm Free

I’m Free??

No longer on unemployment, so technically, according to State statistics I’m “employed.” Isn’t that a HOOT! Statistics are just shorthand for Journalistic tricks to get people swayed to their “view” of something.

I just spent the last week experiencing the flu, and growing some creepy cellulitis skin infection due to my severely compromised immune system. All that conveniently happened within days of my friend dying! It wasn’t exactly the answer I was looking for when I prayed, but therein lays the rub, I didn’t really “pray” for anything specific. Grief has a way of “un-focusing” a person’s thoughts. I guess that’s why they say you’re vulnerable. So as it goes, I took my health more seriously and dropped a chunk of weight. If your stomach wasn’t queasy and sick from the flu, it sure made no attempt at getting better under the prescriptive antibiotics and pain pills. Sigh. It’s a wonder our bodies improve! Nonetheless, I’m way better today in fact; I was able to work out with weights and aerobics. I feel more limber and better. I guess the whole sick thick helped my body out of bit of a slump.

Not having to answer to anyone makes the days more unstructured. The financial crunch is bearing down on my sweetie, but I will continue to pray for him and us. I have strong faith, regardless of God’s answers, that God lifts us all above the heaps we make of our lives. I believe God has an incredible sense of humor!! (Smile) Of this I’m ever grateful! Where else would I get my impish nature?

I’m Free. I owe no one anything really. How do I live?

By Faith, and the fact I’m at least as important as the birds, animals, plants that don’t work or get “progress reports.” By faith that regardless of my “connect the dot” holy clothes, I matter; I’m rich by my heart, personality and beliefs.

Faith, and living by it is strengthening me, minute by minute! I even eat faithfully. The salad and soup sustain me, like they never have!!! What’s that all about??? Weird. Maybe, I’m just growing up, maybe that’s why I’m finally . . .

Free.

Posted by ijellorca on January 17, 2006 9:33 PM | DIGG | del.icio.us | furl