Another shut in weekend

Well short of driving my brother home last night I didn�t venture out. I didn�t even take a shower! I felt creepy all day but I just didn�t have it in me to get in the shower. I didn�t eat much today though. I did splurge on ice cream though. It�s been a few months since I�ve wanted it. I�ve been trying to get more water down. I want it ice cold.

I really feel uncomfortable when I"m home for several days straight because I don't want to go out anymore and I'm terrified of becoming full fledged agoraphobic, but I'm a step from it everyday. If I didn't have my dog urging me to go outside I'd never get outside. The bad or good thing is she can go out to the field all by herself do her business. I've got to get my head straightened out about what I can do, what I want to do and what I will do despite my fears!

Anyways tomorrow�s Monday morning. Tomorrow I�ll get more of my posting format down. I�ll start each post with my weight change or no change and the eating I�ve done or not done. I�ll list my abilities to get outside or not and why or how I�m feeling. I�ll list my goals for the day.
Tomorrow, always tomorrow�s a new day to be�normal.

Posted by ijellorca on September 26, 2004 9:36 PM | DIGG | del.icio.us | furl