May 17, 2005
thinking
weve been doing some thinking about why we are doing this. Why we are writting. Sometimes it seems hopeless, like theres no point to it. But then sometimes we think that maybe if we tell our story, maybe we can help someone else. Maybe someone else wont have to hurt like we do and did.
Today I just feel like sleeping, Like disapearing and waiting for the world to pass on by. The flu has been going around here. I've had it for 6 days now. I'm really dehydrated too. Cant seem to keep fluid down. I guess it has to get better eventually.
I downloaded the song, Concrete Angel yesterday, its the song I picked out for me. Its a bout a little girl that was abused and lots of people knew but they didnt do anything about it. she ended up dieing. I didnt die but I still relate to that cause lots of people knew I was being abused and did nothing.
Jill wants to do somemore coloring. I am getting a n64 for everyone to play on. Amy has been pretty excited. There is nothing around here for her to do right now. I am trying to get a doll house too but they are all soo expensive. then u have to buy all the accessories seperate, way to expensive.
Posted by Heavensdaughter on May 17, 2005 9:57 AM
Comments
Hi Sweet Heaven's,
I appreciate you sharing your story. You are helping yourself, whether you realize it or not, by journaling here. And you are helping others by sharing.
It makes me sick that "lots of people knew you were being abused and did nothing". How horrific.
But you can do better. You can provide your daughters with a safe home, where they know they are loved, where they belong and where they can trust. You are a good mother.
hugs and blessings, Judy
Posted by: judy at May 18, 2005 8:57 AM