October 20, 2004
Rereading my entries, I want
Rereading my entries, I want it so badly all over again. I spent a long time talking about it today, and it helped, but not enough. I want to prove to him that his words haven't fixed me, but I don't want to cut myself because of that.
I just want it, and today I think I might lose the control. Was it really control anyway? Can you ever control an addiction? It feels so right to be in pain. I should be in pain. Just fucking look at me.
Posted by Maya on October 20, 2004 10:47 PM