Health Diaries > Dissociative Identity Disorder > Butterfly Team
January 13, 2007
trust
I FUCKING HATE THE FACT THAT MY ABILITY TO TRUST WAS STOLEN FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I FUCKING HATE THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO WORK SO FUCKING HARD TO LEARN HOW TO TRUST AGAIN --- LIKE WHEN IS IT OK TO TRUST AND WHEN IS IT NOT SAFE TO TRUST AND IF SOMEONE I DID TRUST MAKES A MISTAKE HOW DO I NOT REVERT BACK TO MY DEFENSES OF A LITTLE CHILD AND IMMEDIATELY NOT TRUST THEM ANYMORE. I HATE MY FUCKING ABUSERS FOR TAKING THIS AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's so hard :-( :-( :-( :-(
Posted by Butterflyteam on January 13, 2007 2:57 PM
You just have to realize that there are trustworthy people out there in the world. It's hard to trust and even people without abuse issues have problems trusting sometimes. It's something someone earns from you over time. Don't be so hard on yourself. You have to just learn to trust a little at the time.
Posted by: Rachel at January 14, 2007 6:19 PM
