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December 30, 2006

Days Seven and Eight

day seven (yesterday) - i went to an al-anon meeting with a friend. she's having a hard time with her son and i suggested to her awhile ago that an al-anon meeting might help her. she wasn't ready then but when i suggested it a few days ago, she said she'd like to go.....so we went. it brought back memories of my first aa meetings. then last night i went to dinner and the movies with my sister. we don't usually do things like that - just the two of us. it was nice. i guess i did good things all day but i just felt sort of numb through it all.

day eight (my mother's birthday) - today was very hard. i went to my trauma group this morning. holly wasn't there. she said last week that she would be on vacation all week but she would come to the group on saturday. well, she wasn't there. then i drove to sea cliff to see judi (my nutritionist) in her other office. i saw her for an hour and it was hard because i was feeling so much. but i really like judi. i still feel hopeless about the whole eating disorders thing. i don't see how i'm ever going to break free from the hold it has on me. but i trust judi for some reason and will try to stick with it. then i went to yet another family event - my mother's birthday. i just wasn't up to being around my family tonight. i think i've had enough of them for awhile.

i'm beginning to panic about tomorrow - new year's eve. i've always hated it. i've already started having flashbacks. i'm also having anxiety about going back to work on tuesday. the next two days are going to be difficult.

Posted by Butterflyteam on December 30, 2006 9:13 PM