Health Diaries > Dissociative Identity Disorder > Butterfly Team
December 24, 2006
Day Two (Christmas Eve)
Day two of Donna being away. Still not doing so great. I slept a lot during the day. Still felt very far away and disconnected. Also feeling a lot of abandonment. I emailed Judi (my nutritionist) and she wrote back. That helped a little. I still really, really wish Donna was here. I miss her so much and it's been only two days. I'm used to being in touch with her through email on a daily basis so this is really hard to not be hearing from her at all. I just want her to be here.
I was with my family tonight for Christmas Eve. It was......I don't know. Nothing great but ok I guess. I spent the most time with my 3 year old niece. She opened all her presents and we took time to play with each one. We stuck together all night which was really nice.
It doesn't feel like Christmas. It doesn't feel like anything.
Posted by Butterflyteam on December 24, 2006 09:18 PM
I'm sorry your T is unavailable. So is mine, so I know how it is. Glad you had l:l time with your niece.
Posted by: The Real Me at December 25, 2006 10:15 PM
Hey, just stumbled on reading your blog. I am integrated from DID. It reeeeeallly sucks when the T is out of town...I remember those days well -- Maybe you could try something we did -- record your T's voice on a small recorder -- record a session or something, anything. Then you can listen to it when you need to hear it.
Posted by: Rachel at December 26, 2006 02:05 PM
