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December 23, 2006

Day One

Today is day one of Donna being away for a long time. I promised I would write here every day, even if it's just something little. I'm not doing so well right now. Feeling very abandoned. Just sort of want to crawl into bed and not come out until she comes back. I went to my trauma group this morning for the first time in 4 months. My classes have been on Saturdays so I haven't been able to go. It was nice to be back there. I was struggling this morning but I felt like I couldn't really go in there on my first day back falling apart about Donna leaving so I just kind of pretended everything was fine and I filled them in on how graduate school has been. I have things I want to write here about school and about something Holly explained today but right now......I'm just too out of it so I'll have to do it another day. I'm not feeling very grounded right now so I think I'm just going to lay down and stare mindlessly at the TV. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve. I don't really know how I'm feeling about that. Other than missing Donna and feeling abandoned, I'm sort of spaced out and not feeling very connected to anything including my feelings. I'll write more tomorrow.

Posted by Butterflyteam on December 23, 2006 7:30 PM