Health Diaries > Dissociative Identity Disorder > Butterfly Team
December 27, 2006
Day Five
Day five of Donna being away has been pretty crappy. I don't even think it has to do with her being away, although that certainly doesn't help. I feel disconnected to Donna so even if she was here.....I don't know. I don't even know what I'm saying.
I saw Judi (my nutritionist) for an hour tonight. I was in a pretty bad place. My eating disorder behaviors are out of control lately and I feel so hopeless about ever getting better from my disordered eating. But I can't live like this anymore. I feel trapped. I feel like I can't live like this anymore but I feel like no matter what I do, it won't change anything. My only way out is to just let the eating disorders kill me. Right now I just wish they would hurry up and do their job.
Posted by Butterflyteam on December 27, 2006 08:33 PM
This is a tough time of year. Please try to stay safe, remembering that this will not be your life forever. You are too valuable to allow yourself to give in. Hang in there...
it will get better.
Posted by: The Real Me at December 27, 2006 09:35 PM
