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April 29, 2006

knowing but not doing....

donna wrote an email to me this morning and in response to what i wrote in my last entry here last night, one thing she said was:

"Knowing that you feel overwhelmed and anticipate immobilization offers possibilities of making different decisions."

i know this now. i do. there was a time awhile ago that i didn't know this, but now, i know this is the answer of how i have to make changes in my life. and even though the fear is still there, i have to find a way to make a different decision despite the fear. i could give into the fear and have it immobilize me or i could choose to do something different. i've been saying to myself all morning that i need to make a different decision and follow through on it. i've been SAYING this, but not DOING it! i have to make a committment to myself today that i will make different decisions and follow through on them despite the fear. this is so much easier said than done. i feel the fear surrounding me, as if it was the enemy, waiting to attack and immobilize me.

Posted by Butterflyteam on April 29, 2006 7:38 AM

Posted by: Amanda at May 2, 2006 12:36 AM