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April 18, 2006

it's that basic fear...

i had to get up out of bed to come write this down before i let it slip away. i was writing before about being scared that i wouldn't be able to handle all of the work but that's not the real fear that would hold me back. at least i don't think it is. as all these thoughts kept rolling around in my head, i remembered something i just read in rhonda britten's book - that we often say we're afraid of all these other things happening when it really all comes back to this most basic fear of not being good enough. and that's exactly it!!! i am scared that i will not be good enough as a therapist. and i believe that i will not be good enough as a therapist because i do not believe i am good enough. period. the end. i hold onto a belief that is so deep inside the core of my being that, no matter what, who i am is not enough, let alone, good enough.

Posted by Butterflyteam on April 18, 2006 11:09 PM