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February 5, 2006

dreams....

i had really disturbing dreams last night and i need to just write them out. i'm starting to have flashbacks now that i'm awake and i'm terrified. my dream started off with the world trade center on september 11th. i was at the bottom of the twin towers, below ground level, i think. the towers started to fall but it was in slow motion. parts of the building would crumble and i would scramble underneath to get out of the way of falling debris. i would go down one hallway and see that there was no way out so i would turn down another hallway. there were a lot of times where i would crouch down in a corner and just wait. there was a lot of waiting and feeling terrified. i know i woke up several times during the night in a panic but i would fall right back to sleep and start dreaming again right where i left off before i woke up. the prevailing feelings throughout the dream was that of being underground and having things come down on top of me - in a sense, being buried alive. that is where the flashbacks are coming from now. i feel like i can't breathe and i feel trapped. i feel like there's not enough air or space.

Posted by Butterflyteam on February 5, 2006 7:36 AM