Health Diaries > Dissociative Identity Disorder > Butterfly Team
June 26, 2005
another school year comes to an end...
This past Thursday was our last day of school. The end of the school year is always so crazy with report cards, paperwork, meetings, special events, closing up the classroom, etc. but these past two weeks have been especially stressful. I think it had to do with where I am emotionally. I just couldn't keep up with everything I had to do. I would sit with a report card in front of me and I would just stare at it. I couldn't concentrate. There are a lot of things coming up in therapy and my head was just constantly spinning. Just the fact that this is a transistion and my schedule is changing is enough to throw me off. I am very glad that I will have a lot more time on my hands to focus on my healing now. There are so many things I need to look at and examine. Most of it will be difficult but I feel like I just want to do it and get it over with and move on. But before I can do anything, I feel like I need to regroup and refocus myself. The last few weeks I have felt like no matter what I did I just couldn't keep up with everything coming at me. I feel like I need to just yell STOP! I need to be able to freeze everything and then look at it one piece at a time. I know that's not always possible, but it's just what I feel like I have to do in order to regain some control over everything.
Posted by Butterflyteam on June 26, 2005 8:20 AM
Ohhhhh honey I TOTALLY understand.
I am so glad the school year if over now so you can concentrate on what you need to. You deserve this time to yourself and working on getting better.
Posted by: Pilgrim at June 26, 2005 10:15 AM
