Health Diaries > Dissociative Identity Disorder > Butterfly Team
January 24, 2005
today sucks...
today just absolutely sucks. my head is killing me. i can't stop crying. i screwed things up with donna and now i'm not seeing her today. my fault. i can't do anything right. i can't get a grip on my emotions. everything seems so out of control. i really want to cut so i can escape the feelings for a little while. i don't know how much longer i can avoid not cutting. i feel like no one understands what i'm going through. but even if they do understand, that doesn't seem like it's enough. i need someone to help me. i need someone to take away the pain. and i guess the problem is that no one can take away the pain and i'm the only one who can help myself. therefore, i feel trapped because i feel like i don't know how to help myself and the pain is too great. i hate this. i hate this. i hate this.
Posted by Butterflyteam on January 24, 2005 10:42 AM
