Health Diaries > Dissociative Identity Disorder > Butterfly Team
January 19, 2005
Hanging on......
I went away for a few days. I went to Florida. I got back last night. I've been struggling a little. I really miss Sandy. It was helpful to be out of the house for a few days. It's so hard to be here and not have her here too. I keep forgetting that she's not here anymore. Isn't that horrible of me? I'll think to myself - where's Sandy or I'll go look for her and then it hits me. I remember that no matter where I look, I won't find her. While I was away, I kept thinking that I didn't want to come back. I just wanted to disappear and not be heard of ever again. That way no one would expect anything from me or want anything from me. I had a new memory while I was gone. A bad one. I was triggered by the hotel room. I just keep wondering - when do the memories stop? How much more can there possibly be? *Sigh*
Posted by Butterflyteam on January 19, 2005 04:18 PM
I completely understand what you mean about your dog. (((((Butterflyteam)))) I wish so much that I could make things beter.
Posted by: Pilgrim at January 19, 2005 06:23 PM
