Health Diaries > Bipolar Disorder > Handcuffed to the Roller Coaster
February 16, 2005
I hate life.
I'm so depressed...I applied for a city job, and I was honest about my past drug use because I believe in being honest...& now I'm "permanently disqualified" from city jobs because I'm honest. So should I have lied and told them I never used drugs and gotten the job even though I was lying? I hate life.
It just doesn't take much to make me depressed, and now I'm twice as upset because I just don't see any point in continuing with anything. Any job I want, with the County or the city, they're going to ask if I've ever used drugs and I'll have to say yes, because it's true, and then they'll "disqualify" me. It was nearly 20 years ago! Doesn't that count for something? I hate life.
So I'll never get what I want because I was stupid when I was young & didn't know what I wanted from life. Life sucks. They never let you forget. I hate life.
Posted by Susan on February 16, 2005 11:54 PM
