Health Diaries > Bipolar Disorder > Handcuffed to the Roller Coaster
October 3, 2004
Wishing You Could Take it Back
Now I have to live in terror that my friend from Nevada will see this and know what I think. Sometimes I wish I could just keep my stupid mouth (or keyboard) shut and never never never say what I think. I am so stupid. I hate myself sometimes for my thoughtlessness.
Turns out my friend is a better friend than even I thought. He thinks I saved his life a long time ago, that's why he's such a good friend now. I would have been more patient with him if I'd known. God, I'm so dumb.
It's unlikely he'll ever find this site, it's not under my full name, but still there's always a chance, and there's not a lot of people in LA with friends in Nevada like I've described. Oh, and work for Knott's. He'll know who I mean, and then he'll hate me. I hate me. I hate life.
Posted by Susan on October 3, 2004 1:57 PM
