Health Diaries > Bipolar Disorder > Handcuffed to the Roller Coaster

October 6, 2004

Surviving

I've been doing okay. Been working at Knott's over the weekend, so I've been a little busy getting my schedule arranged etc., and being too tired to write. I'll get back into the swing again. I've been slacking on my writing chores and household chores, and that's not good. But I've been getting to work with no trouble and getting to my kung fu classes, so that's a plus.

Working at Knott's has its good and bad sides. The work is very low-stress, just what's needed for a rapid cycling bipolar, (I'm running the metal-detector at the main gate) and the hours are good. Problem is, the hours haven't yet been up to 8 a night, although I'm scheduled for 8. I've been lucky to get six hours. That's rough when you're getting paid $7 an hour. But it'll pay for my meds & sundry needs. If need be I"ll go back on the county and save a buck or two.

I'm having an arguement with my dr. He doesn't seem to think that my meds could suddenly be making me drowsy in the morning. I disagree. I've gone thru periods where my meds suddenly changed for me--that's why we need to fine-tune every now and again. I do hate argueing with my dr. I've been doing this for at least the last 20 years, probably as long as my dr., so dont' tell me he knows more than me.

Well, nuff said. I will win this battle, or I'll find a new dr. That's always what I do.

Posted by Susan on October 6, 2004 10:28 PM