Health Diaries > Bipolar Disorder > Handcuffed to the Roller Coaster

September 21, 2004

Summaries of Memories

I'm always nervous about writing diaries, especially ones that are going to be published for everyone to see. What should I say? It's kind of embarassing.

I'm writing this because I want to share my experiences with bipolar disorder with others like me, and others who want to learn about people like me. So here goes.

I'm 40 years old. I've had bipolar disorder since I was 14. I've tried to kill myself 6 times. I've been hospitalized four times, twice voluntarily, twice following suicide attempts. Those were very short, only 2 days apiece.

Right now, I've been stable for five months, since May. I'm taking a drug cocktail of five meds, Zyprexa for psychosis, Zoloft, Depakote, Topamax and synthroid. I'm unemployed, but should be working again soon, within the next week or two.

I'll be trying to write a little every day, combining daily status reports with memoirs of my past experiences with bipolar. Comments are welcomed.

Thanks for listening to me. I look forward to talking to you.

Posted by Susan on September 21, 2004 11:20 PM