Health Diaries > Bipolar Disorder > Handcuffed to the Roller Coaster

September 27, 2004

Reprieve?

Well, my friend who was coming isn't coming today. He's not feeling well. But now I have a new problem. My mother has a friend who's coming to visit Friday, and my friend says he'll be here on Wednesday. Big trouble. Do I ask him to reschedule? Aaarggh.

I really don't need this stress. I've got enough as it is. I'm still in limbo, waiting for my job at Knott's to come through, and if they don't call me in the next day or so, I'm going to give up and go back to temp work. I really don't want to, but I have to do something. This stretching is just killing me.

Bipolars are rotten people to have to sit and wait. We don't do it very well. We're always imagining the worst that can happen, and then we never believe it when things turn out okay. And if it does turn out bad, we sit and wonder how it could possibly turn out worse. No wonder some of us cut ourselves. It's to relieve the pressure.

Posted by Susan on September 27, 2004 4:45 PM