Health Diaries > Bipolar Disorder > Handcuffed to the Roller Coaster
September 24, 2004
It's Tough to Explain
How do you tell someone you're depressed "just a little"?
Mom was getting on me for not being productive lately. I said it was because I was depressed. She said, are you depressed because of your meds, or because you just feel a little down. I said, I don't know, I just feel discouraged. She said, well everyone feels that way sometimes.
How can I explain to her it's not the same thing? We're like two people almost speaking the same language but not quite. As if she speaks Middle English while I'm speaking Modern English. The sounds are all still there, but the words aren't quite the same.
I'm discouraged because things aren't going quite right, and things aren't going quite right because I've been depressed for about 2 weeks. I haven't been able to write, and have energy to work out. It's been a one-or-the-other sort of thing. How do you tell someone who doesn't understand that, how do you explain?
I'm not mad at my mother, or at myself. I just wonder what's the best way to proceed. It seems like it's always been the same problem, over and over again.
Posted by Susan on September 24, 2004 11:50 PM
