January 30, 2005

Sunday tired Sunday

It is already Sunday and I am still not back in my home, I am really feeling down. It is so hard to stay in someone elses home and then to also find out that someone you truly respect and would never intentionally offend you have done so simply by trying so hard not to. I know that does not make sense to anyone but me right this minute. My hands are swollen and red again, my elbows are acting-what is that about? It seems like at least weekly something else rears its ugly head and I have no choice but to adapt and I am tired of adapting to everything! I wish for once something or someone had to adapt to me. It is so odd to me that every time I turn around something else is going wrong.

I have managed to also make my son angry at me most of the time anymore and at the same time, I do not understand how that happened. I chalk part of it up to normal teenage moodiness-but I think the rest is also staying at my parent house, changing schools, not having a home still, we have been at my dads for three weeks now and it looks like it will be another week or so. I am truly hoping for less simply because it is so very hard to have two families under the same roof and it work for any length of time.

I have my long day tommorow then have to pick up the kids, I will be lucky to make it home by nine in all fairness and then have to get them ready for bed and make sure I can go to sleep at a reasonable hour so that I can get up tuesday and do it all again.

I am tired, so tired. I have been telling people that I sleep like a baby-up every two hours-LOL but it is so true and I need a good nights sleep so bad. I honestly think if I could sleep for about 10 hours solid I could start feeling better. A lack of sleep will cause you to be in more pain (my own opinion) simply because your body is supposed to heal itself through rest so how does that happen if you do not rest?

Anyway I am going to wrap this up and get ready for bed-filled with dread over tommorow and such a long long long (did I say long yet?) day.

One more thing before I wrap it up-I want to apologize to anyone who has read this and feels offended by my blantant dislike of Mr. Bush. Ocassionially I interject my opinion on alot of matters everywhere LOL and this is also one of those places. In any event to anyone who felt truly offended-I am apologizing to you. And to anyone who enjoys it-NAMASTE :) and goodnight.

Remember-keep smiling :)

Posted by Lisa on January 30, 2005 5:26 PM