January 06, 2005
Suffering from a serious lack of sleep
It seems as if they get one symptom under control and a whole crop of new ones pop up! It is crazy. One of the things I have been having alot of troble with is sleeping-the pain in my legs makes it impossible to sleep for more than a couple of hours at a time and then I am up taking painkillers to try and grab a couple more hours of sleep. My husband says I am becoming addicted to the pain meds and I have honestly spoke with my doctor about that and she and I agree that that is a possibility but at this time it is better for me to not have to deal with the chronic pain that comes with both of these illnesses. I have to say at least my regular doctor is so supportive and concerned about me. I believe she truly has my best interests at heart instead of her pocketbook. When I was recently hospitalized over this flare, she came to see me every day and was so loving everyone thought she was my sister and not my doctor because of how friendly she was and how concerned she was for my well-being. I trust her 100% and that is very important in a doctor.
Speaking of which-I go see her this morning at 10:45 and I think she will be relieved that I am no longer hysterical. Last week I was borderline nuts. The pain, the conflicting diagnosis's and everyting had just got to be too much and mentally I was struggling to stay afloat. That is when she put me on the nerve pills as well as upped the strength of my anti-depressant. In order to be able to deal with the massive changes in my life you have to mentally be able to cope and sometimes that means temporarily taking meds until your thinking kicks in and helps you adjust. My diagnosis is so new that it is still all consuming and I am filled with fear and dread regarding the future. I know I will adjust but it does take time. I have only been officially diagnosed since November 19th and hospitalized on November 30th for pain and fever control so it is still very new to me. It is going to take some time to adjust I guess.
Posted by Lisa on January 6, 2005 01:17 AM
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