June 17, 2004

Ewwww

I feel so nasty right now. Just so icky and gross feeling.

Got a new haircut and liked it at first, then washed it and I can't style it worth a crap. I wish for once I could do something good and right.

I'm guessing its just a bad night for me. Its almost 1 am and not even sleepy, tired but not sleepy. Guess I will retreat to my room to watch a movie pretty soon.

I do not feel welcome anywhere. Like a stranger no matter where I go. I take too many things to heart and let them much hurt me, but I can not change myself quickly with that. No doubt that I will keep it wrapped up nice and tight and not tell anyone.

I hate the night sometimes....I seem to let my guard down and these feelings rush up and overwhelm me.

Posted by Mel on June 17, 2004 5:18 PM