August 11, 2004
totally neurotic
Well, I might say that Miss Voice is gone. Sort of.
But the thing is, right now, I am packing and painting to take my stuff over to Maastricht tomorrow and I really want some comfort or something familiar right now. Somehow my mind sees that as an open invitation to go back to ED behaviors. I refuse. It's not worth it. I'm gonna go there and I'm not gonna get all eating disordered again and it's gonna rock and of course I'm feeling insecure... After all, I'm only 18 and moving to the other side of the country all by myself. Now, what kind of a nutcase does that?
Further I am acting pretty much neurotic, always twitching and so on. Am I neurotic? Never knew that.
This house is one big trigger.....
Posted by Eldalote on August 11, 2004 08:28 AM
I was reading your blog...and the bravery you are exhibiting in going so far away. I've had an on-going battle with anorexia for 35 years. I"ve been pretty much on the wining side now. So just keep on putting one foot in front of the other. One day you may notice that you are hardly finding anything that triggers you!Kathy
Posted by: Kathy at August 15, 2004 12:19 PM