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March 21, 2005

...an ongoing process

For me, overcoming anorexia is going ok....but a little slow. I am working with my therapist at accepting my body as I slowly add pounds to my weight. I have slowly gained just 4 lbs since Christmas and I have trouble dealing with it at times. My size 2 pants no longer fit and that bugs me. But, on the other hand, I am eating more and enjoying it. Go figure!!!

In my sessions with my therapist we work at thigs like doing the acceptance thing and loving myself. Even the Bible tells me to love my neighbor as myself, so I must surely be able to love myself. It is just going to take me a while getting there. Some days I do pretty good at it and other days have turned out just plain old depressing.

I'm glad to be working on these issues though. The one thing I DON'T want to do is to stay anorectic for all of my life. The mental illness stole much happiness and enjoyment from me for the first half of my life and I do NOT intend on letting this happen for the rest of my life!

Posted by Kathy at 10:06 AM | Comments (0)

March 02, 2005

Still a work in progress

My eating is still a work in progress. I am finding many things that I can now connect that give me useful information as to the how's and why's I've had an eating disorder for so long a time. It's a daily thing and I feel I am gaining valuable ground with each passing day. It's exciting!!!

I've found out that there were things that happened in my very early childhood that most likelly started the formation of an eating disorder in me. That's long before I previously thought it got going. But new information has shed light on certain things and my therapist thinks that my eating disorder began as early as infancy. Strange.....but useful to know!

Posted by Kathy at 09:51 AM | Comments (0)