October 21, 2005
Consumed by Self-Destruction
Consumed by Self-Destruction
You consume me, you control me
when I thought I had it all and
I find instead I've lost everything
to the chaos in my mind
Where's the ME I long to find, the
me I never knew? I'm sinking, falling
fast and the hole goes so much deeper
than I ever imagined it could go
I feel you inside me.. clawing your way
through my soul. My life. Scratching at
the bars these ribs have created, locking
yourself deep inside.
No one can reach me. Save me and I can't save
myself no matter how hard I've tried.
Is this merely the beginning of another
downward spiral, or am I nearing the end
of this pitiful existence?
One foot in the grave, one foot out
looking for salvation, finding only pain I
never knew existed. Only because I thought
I'd starved it all away. Thought I'd made it disappear.
But it never left, it's still here. Fighting against
a troubled mind with things I can't escape.
Drowing inside from withheld tears and all the things
I constantly feel but can never explain.
I'm at the bottom, yet I keep digging deeper
thinking I can find my way out
on my own, though I know
it's a never ending fight.
10/21/05
Posted by Wendy on October 21, 2005 1:30 PM
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I say, watch me now deep into my eyes
to see how life is slipping away from my hands
So sick I feel inside this head
This suffering cannot be shared
I became the living icon of weakness
It burned emotions, made me reveal your lies
I'm the incarnation of suffering
I'm the harvester of your lies
Your lies make a man like me
close my eyes
your lies put the label of weakness in me
The art of self-destruction
I bury all my dreams
The art of self-destruction
I show the label of weakness in me
The art of self-destruction
I bury all my dreams
The art of self-destruction
Posted by: Anonymous at April 28, 2006 2:24 PM