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May 26, 2005

Breathing Space

Today is my birthday. 26 on the 26th. Supposedly that makes it my "golden" birthday. All I can think is that in four short years, I'm already going to be 30! ugh! I hate growing up. I always have.

Anyway, I am finally getting a moment to sit down and breathe. Things have been so hectic lately, that I find myself running from one thing to the next, hardly stopping to sleep in between.

I started the summer semester at the University, (with only a two-day break between spring and summer sessions... ugh!). My classes are going pretty good-- but the Child Abuse and Neglect course is a bit rough at times. It's hard to sit through class and keep an objective view about everything. It's hard to stay distanced from something so personal.

A lot has been going on lately. Today was the last day of school though (at work). The kids were only there for half the day, so it was nice for us teachers to be able to get together one last time before summer. We packed up the room and said goodbye to the kids, and then the social committee decided it would be a great idea to have lunch for everyone. UGH!! I dread those sort of social situations with a passion. I drank my bottle of diet coke, but when I didn't jump right up to get lunch like everyone else, I got the comments and stares from everyone. Why can't they just leave me alone about it???

I ended up putting 10 mini pretzles on my plate and about 1/8 of a cup of some pasta salad stuff. I purposely didn't grab a fork though. So, I sat at the table nibbling on my pretzles and drinking my soda while everyone else had some club sandwhich thing, mounds of pasta and potato salad (all fattening) and then cookies and ice cream afterwards. I got up to throw my plate away and Sue noticed I hadn't eaten any of the pasta. I casually said, oh-- I forgot a fork.... She just laughed and said, "... you can use mine if ya want." Sue is a little oblivious to a lot of things. I said no thanks, and proceeded to throw my plate away. Thank god I got out of that one!

I'm supposed to be in class tonight, but don't feel like going. I have therapy at 8 p.m. and then I'm going to my parents' house after that. Since it's my b'day, they want to see me for a little while at least. My twin is not too happy with the rest of the family right now (I'll explain in a later email) so she doesn't want to see any of them. Which means that she won't be doing the "family birthday party" thing for our b'day this year. I feel bad doing it by myself-- but I can't make her come. It'll be the first year in 26 years that we haven't spent it together. That's a little hard to take sometimes. I try not to think about it.

I'm also getting ready to move to a new house. My boyfriend and I are renting a house. We both have a dog, and there's really no apartments that will take two fairly large dogs. But we found a great house and it's affordable and in a nice area and close to everything. We move in on June 15th, which means that I have to start packing. I'm excited to move, but at the same time-- the thought of starting over in someplace new is a little scary. It takes me awhile to get used to things when they change, and it's always hard at first. But I'll have an entire room to myself as my art studio, so I'm excited about that.

I'm looking forward to having a good summer this year. I'm not sure what I'll be doing just yet, but I don't want to waste the days.

Posted by Wendy at 3:00 PM | Comments (0)