Coming Undone
Feeling like we're coming undone lately. Lots and lots of losses-- of people, of dreams we had, deaths in the family and things like that. Its been a hard couple months, and the past couple of weeks have been especially tough. Hard to get words out, and inside things have been unravelling. Our therapist has a lot of stuff going on, so therapy has been really unstable as far as times and meeting and all sorts of things. There isn't a lot we can say right now about that. But there are a lot of things up in the air, and its scary as all get out. We're so scared of losing our T, even though she says she will always talk to us. But the changes that have been going on in her life affect our life, and it just feels unstable and scary. Brings up a lot of abandonment issues and fears. And we so desperately need to be able to have some things to depend on, to have a safe place to go and to have a safe person, even if it is only twice a week for a few hours. We don't have that right now, and it feels awful. Jadie and Mae keep acting up, they have been upset constantly since Tuesday and we've been having trouble sleeping for a few weeks because we're so worried and upset about things. If you read this, and if you're a praying person, please pray that things will all work out for our therapist and that things will be all right for her, and for us. We can't stand losing another person.
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