Handled stress in a new way.....
I'm so...weirded out. Amazed. I don't want to say proud of myself, because I know its not ME-- its because God has been changing me, I have been incapable of changing myself alone for the past 30 + years. I have been working hard on it, and putting forth a LOT of hard work too, but its totally God who has made it happen. Last night I handled stress in a COMPLETELY new way than I ever have.
On my way home from a job interview I just had adrenaline shooting out my pores for heavens sake-- AGH!!! and so I went over to a new friend's house where she was thankfully waiting with open arms and lots of paint brushes. So we hung out and talked and painted and even though I was totally stressed, I painted a pretty picture about peace, balance, and joy (I will post a picture of it later when I have time. )
In the past when I was stressed, I would have: cried, gone home and cut skipped a few meals, painted some ugly picture about hate/self-destruction/pain, and then probably cried some more. That was my pattern.
Last night when I started to paint I wondered what kind of painting would come out of me, I wondered if I would go for the reds and blacks as I used to, but then I found myself drawns towards these beautiful purples, pinks, and blues that my friend had.... so the picture turned out so different.
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You are doing GREAT!
That is so beautiful. I am so happy for you.