Six months has passed

Its been six months since Sharon left. Six months tonight. I have been trying really hard today to focus only on positive things...on God. I have had to turn my heart and mind off. Today I went through a box of my old journals and papers from therapy and threw most of them away. It just hurt to look at them. I saved one thing... a picture that Sharon and I drew together years ago that has peoples names on the back including hers saying how people love me and want the best for me. I wonder if its still true. I wonder if she still cares, or ever thinks of me. She used to care so much. I miss her so much. My heart just hurts. I haven't eaten much today. Every time my stomach growls and I go to eat... I have a flashback of that last night, of what Sharon said. And I just don't feel like eating.
God has done good things for me. Every morning before I get out of bed, I start talking to God and thank him for all the good things he has already done for me, for watching out for me. I will always give God praise, no matter how alone and hurt I am. I know he knows what is best. Today it was just kind of hard.
I don't care to have any comments on this post. For those of you who want to be judgmental about what I'm going through, you can keep your comments to yourself. You don't know what I'm going through, and you're not in my shoes. I don't care what negative commenters think anyway, because people don't have any right to judge me or my life.
I just miss her.

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