My nervous breakdown starts NOW

Hi everyone this is Carolineine.
I'm sorry we haven't had much time to update our journals the past few weeks. We've been back to work for around 3-4 weeks, and since I'm mentoring some new teachers and on some committees plus trying to help out with some other things, I feel like I'm running around all day long.
I'm ready to have my nervous breakdown right about NOW. I practically live on my computer. I've been busy doing all kinds of things, including school projects for others, and my own classroom things on my workstation at school. Well the other day my computer decided it needed to die. I talked nice to it. I threatened it. I offered it stickers. I hit it a few times. I gave it choices. Its choice was to begin dying.
So I have been trying to back up all my files. The past 2 days I've spent several hours taking & fixing up pictures for school webpages. Today, some "computer expert" came to "FIX" my computer. I told her it didn't need fixing, It needs a new hard drive. She decided to "fix" it anyway. I told her, I really don't think its going to work. I was trying to stick up for my computer.
WELL. She fixed it alright. It is now in the throes of death. AND EVERYTHING-- EVERYTHING-ALL OF MY WORK IS GONE. Everything I have been doing for 3 weeks at school. EVERY DOCUMENT. Every lesson plan. Every picture. Every plan and schedule. Its GONE.
Now I have to re-do EVERYTHING. And spend all those hours and hours retyping, and re-inventing, and re-doing, and re-loading, and re-writing. The kids aren't going to like this much. This is vital assessment things, required paperwork, required lesson plans, etc that we HAVE to have for school, and the things that HAVE to get back up on the webpages, etc. I feel like my hands are tied. As I was trying to deal with this, 2 other teachers came up and told me they needed my help too. Then someone called who needed my help. I feel like I'm under a lot of pressure. I'm handling it though. Its just a lot at the moment now that my computer crashed
On the bright side, I have a terrific class this year. They make me laugh a lot, and we have a good time in my classroom. Some moments are pretty hard, but the days are so busy that they go by fairly quickly. At night I work on things for school.
In therapy I think the kids have been working hard. We're trying to get Pilgrim to be more aware of the things that are going on around her-- something she's not too keen on. Jo has had a little bit of time to talk to our therapist, and Mae got a little bit of time a couple weeks ago. Our school has corporal punishment, and I had to be a witness for a paddling the other day--- that caused some pretty difficult flashbacks for everyone inside. I think we're going to need to talk about that with our T.
We are also still working on making friends. Offered to take someone to dinner-- hopefully they will take me up on it. I hope that the friendships I'm trying to form with 2 of the new teachers at our school will pan out.

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1. Posted by john w on September 4, 2006