update from jo

My therapist sent me an email and says that she agrees with the decision to not go be in that group right now. That was really hard to hear. I was afraid she would be mad though. But she said the thing to be proud of is that I did at least go in for the assessment in the 1st place. That is something I guess. She says the thing to do is keep working awat at the list of goals we;re already working on. So I guess we just keep plodding on...

Still here on vacation with family where I grew up.
Last night did ok until we were on our way somewhere/then on the way home-- realized where we were. Happened to look up and saw we were driving past the quarry and the cornfield. All of a sudden I froze up and it felt like someone poured ice water over me. There are so many memories to fight here and it feels like HE is everywhere. Those bad things happened all over this town,. I wish that cornfield would be cut down. I wish that quarry would be filled in. Last night I laid there in bed having so many flashbacks. So many things happened just even 200 feet (if that far) from where i am sitting right now. I can see right now into the building where HE raped me one night because he was mad that I came home :late: (according to him) from going out to the mall with a friend, where the back of my head got ground into the cold hard cement of the floor. Right now I just feel numb. But I know it'll just hit me again when I get in bed, like it did last night.

jo

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1. Posted by The Real Me on June 11, 2006