The perfect Christmas present

Everyone is making their Christmas lists right now. Even inside kids are-- Mae wants anything that has fairies on it-- especially a fairy doll. Other kids have cut out pictures of toys out of catalogues, from soccer balls to bikes. What we really want most though is a kitten. But that would not be the perfect present.
The perfect present would be a friend. Like a real friend, a best friend. Like a soul mate. It is all I want. It is all everyone inside wants. Today was a really hard day. My husband had to have surgery. I was so worried about him. I had to wait in the waiting room all day by myself. Nearly everyone else in the waiting room had someone to wait with them. In fact, I think that EVERYONE else was in pairs. I do not have any friends or family who could have come be there with me. I kept wondering, what if something happened? Who would I even call? The only people I have are some aquaintances at work, and my therapist and nutritionist. And they are paid to be in my life.
I just want a FRIEND. I wanted so badly for someone to just be there to sit with me today. All day I've been so stressed out and I just feel like I'm about to collapse. It would have made s uch a difference to have someone there to offer some support while I support and take care of my husband. I just want a friend for Christmas. I want so much for someone to hang out with and sit there with me in waiting rooms.
i'm sorry. i'm tired and this probably made no sense at all. there's a lot of yelling and talking going on in my head tonight and i'm so exhausted i cant deal with any of it.

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