left out
I dont even understand why I feel this way, but I feel left out. Left out of the online communities I belong to, left out of my family, left out of the world, left out at my job somehow too (even though I know that is probably not true about work.) I am just really lonely. I want someone to talk to, a friend. I want a place where I can write about how I'm really feeling, about things that happened at work today or inside my head. I want a friend that I can call up and chat with about the day, find out how her day is going, tell her about mine. I don't have someone like that, and I'd give just about anything. I am just so lonely.
As of today things are still extremely stressful at work but I'm working hard to get a handle on things, and making a little bit of progress in separating work and home lives. Been leaving all my school work at school. Leaving home things at home. In the car on the way to and from work, I play ENYA music and usually pray, to try to relax. I have managed to sneak in a few minutes of reading here and there, and a few minutes of listening to music here and there also. Sometimes I have up to 10 minutes to relax. Its rare but I 'm grateful for any and every second.
Maybe next week things will calm down.
What all of us inside are wishing for most is a friend.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
chin up. you are strong. people you don't even know care about you.
I have been feeling really lonely recently too. *hug*