Basic Needs

I'm supposed to go to my eating disorder support group tomorrow night. Supposed to be there every other week (it alternates with therapy). I just dont think I'm going to make it. Right now, with school being so busy, so much going on, too much paperwork, too much on my mind, nightmares waking me up all the time, I am just exhausted. I think its just going to be better if I stay home tomorrow and lay down and rest like I tried to do for a while tonight. My stomach is in knots and my body hurts. Maybe its just too much business at work , Maybe its just all psycho-somatic. Maybe we're just a bunch of hypochondriacs. Maybe its because we don't eat rignt (my nutritionist would chime in at this point and say "BINGO! There you go!" ) I have been trying to eat better the last few days. There's so much on my mind, and so many disgusting flashbacks, that my stomach does flips at the thought of eating. I'm not going to force myself to eat if I already feel like throwing up. That seems pointless.
Just need to get basic needs met right now. Sleep. I just want to sleep. That is all.

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