So much to do
There's just so much to do. I have accomplished a good deal, even just today-- I work on recovery stuff every day, and it can get exhausting. Today I signed up for the peer support program for my county, I went to their building in another city since they haven't returned my calls. I had therapy for 2 hours this morning-- which was good, but hard. The 5 year old talked for a long time, and even though it was pretty hard for her, I think it helped a good deal. She is feeling very sad and having an extremely hard time dealing with loss. My goal for the next few days is to help her express her feelings in a safe way, even though thats really hard for me to do. I imagine that I'll spend a good deal of time dissociated, but on some level I'm going to have to have an adult self present in order to help the 5 year old when she needs it... and thats going to take a lot of work. My therapist also took the time to explain some things to the 5 year old today, I think they had the little toy people out today, acting something out-- it was about friends, or relationships, something like that. Whatever it was, it made sense to the 5 year old. I have found that when I'm having a hard time with a difficult concept, and the 5 year old goes and talks to my therapist about it, my therapist is very good about explaining things to her on her level. Then she "gets it" on a basic level, snd the information and concepts somehow travel through the grapevine through our system, and it helps us understand things better.
All of this mental work completely exhausts me every day. I can't get through the day without a napp. I've been trying to see that its ok to let myself get some rest once in a while. I've always thought it just makes me lazy... I'm trying to reframe my thoughts a little bit.
I have so much work to do.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Hey Sweet Gal,
Wow, I think you are right that helping your little one through the reprecussions of therapy in a SAFE way with an adult present is a challenge. I think you are up to it. Remember the focus and the 'team/staff meetings' you talked about having to keep the IP therapy in progress?? I believe in you and that you can use some of that to get through this. Also, you sound like you are more grounded again than when you first returned home..putting aside external stressors for the time...
Give your little one my love,
Still your friend,
Hugs and Blessings, Love, Judy
I know what you mean about being exhausted after therapy. My sessions usually run about 3 hours, if I've done any emotional work (like when a little comes out and talks about what happened), I am totally worn out. There are many times I wished I could take a nap.
chris
ps plus remember, we usually don't get all that much sleep at night.