Small Step
Well, another invasion of the body snatchers event happened as usual, and Carolineine took over tonight. Which is probably a good idea, because I was in no mood to handle anything.
When Carolineine and I switched places again tonight, Carolineine imagined weaving her memories of the evening in with mine inside of our minds. It looked like she was weaving a ribbon in and out of my mind. I think that is how I am able to remember some of the things that she did tonight.
She made us get up off the couch and got us to a support group tonight. Its one that I started going to 5 years ago, but haven't been to for a while, for various reasons. I guess she even talked, and let people call her by my name so it wouldn't weird them out. Afterward though she let our therapist know it was her.
So, yah... we got up and went to group... even though all we felt like doing was laying on the couch and feeling sorry for ourselves and doing a lot of negative behaviors. Its a good thing we have Carolineine who can motivate herself enough to get up and do things, even when the rest of us dont care.
So... another small step toward recovery... and then another, because she ate fruits and vegetables tonight, made me eat even though I didn't want to, and it was even healthy stuff, at that.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Yeah Caroline! Going back to the group was a great move. And whatever she did to help you remember what happened was super great..
I'm sooooo glad you aren't giving in to harmful behaviors, you sound stronger still, even at this time that you are sooo stressed and triggered.
Hugs and Blessings, Love, Judy