Moving On & Letting Go

My goal for this summer is to learn to move on and let go. Of the past, of old eating disorder and self injury behaviors, of old distorted thought processes that didnt get me anywhere. I'm trying so hard to move on. I just finished reading this really great book called Get Over It and On With It: How to Get up When Life Knocks You Down. by Michelle Hammond. It was just what I needed to read at this point in my journey. I bought it at one of the Christian bookstores around where I live. It really was just... pretty much things I already know, but needed to be firmly reminded of. Like how God always has a plan for our lives, plans for good and not for evil. Like how God is always on my side even in hard times. That I have a choice of how to face each day. That I'm going through hard times; I dont have to STAY here. That God uses all our problems and difficult times to teach us valuable lessons and help us depend on Him and become stronger people. One of the first things I have to do though is to let go of what I'm used to (like the eating disorder, the cutting, the old ways of thinking)... and be open to new things to come my way... use the resources that God brings my way (and I notice that the more I admit I need them, the more I find... which is weird for me... kinda bizarre, actually, because I've always been stubborn and said I could do everything on my own; I'm only discovering recently that I cant.) Letting go of things is hard for me. Letting go of the past, and people in the past, is really hard for me. The majority of my family lives in the past, always talking about the "good old days" of how things used to be. Its how I was raised. I have to break free of those old thought patterns and learn to set my sights on the future. That's something that Carolineine (one of the inside people) is able to do easily, but I really have a hard time with. I want to be like her.

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1. Posted by Judy on June 29, 2005