Discouraged right now.

My therapist told me today that she's moving to another office (again-- several times now in the past 5 years)--- she's moving closer to her home, farther from mine. This is happening in about 3 weeks.
its going to be a farther drive for me, more gas ($$$$), more time.
she told me she could help me find a new T closer to home, but i really dont want to do that. I've been seeing this T for 5 years now, we have a very good relationship, and I dont want to start over again with someone new. So that isn't really an option.
So... now once again I'll be following my T out to a new office... and going through all these changes AGAIN... which are always so hard

i am so down and discouraged right now, feeling like i want to do a LOT of negative behaviors which i just can't allow myself to do (because i know they wouldn't really help)

i am having such a bad week.. and i needed some good news today, not more bad news...

trying to tell myself that its just more of an inconvenience, its not like my T is moving out of state or anything. she's still going to see me. its not like she's moving away. the news could have been worse.
but i still feel so abandoneded.
when i was little my family moved all the time too and its just this cycle that keeps repeating again and again
and i hate it so much

i do not know what to do
i dont know how to handle this
i dont know what to say to my T
she knows this is hard on me, she knows i have a very hard time whenever she changes offices, she generally tries to help me through it. but i'm so tired right now

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