Getting back to Life
Today was a great day. I feel like I'm getting a life back.
At work today, things went so well. I had a great time being back where I belong and feeling needed and taking care of things, and being around my colleagues. After work I went to therapy. It was so good to see my therapist again. She is really the best. While I was waiting, I noticed that there are windows high up on the wall of the waiting area, and a skylight out there. I never noticed them before, and I've been going there for 5 years now. I never looked up before. It was a strange realization. So today while I waited for my therapist to come get me, I watched out the window, amazed that I had never even looked up, amazed I'd never seen the bright light that came in overhead. My session went really well. I shared with her a bunch of things from the hospital including work that I did there. The neat thing was, I stayed present the whole time. I was there, myself. She even noticed me using some of the others' words, expressions and gestures. Its so strange to think about. I have noticed that I'm doing it. Its weird. Its certainly not a bad thing by any means-- its just different, and something new to get used to. For instance, the word "lovely" was always Carolineine's word before, but now sometimes I use it too. The word "dammit" was Missy's word always.... but I have noticed myself using it at times. Its so different.
What I need to do is keep pushing myself and to hold on to all that I learned while inpatient. I learned so much and got a lot of great skills. I actually have self-confidence now and can handle things on my own, which I never did before. My therapist said I seem more peaceful. And I do-- I'm certainly less panicky now.I feel like I can stand on my own 2 feet.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under:
Hi Pilgrim, welcome back! I'm so happy to hear you're doing well and that things are better. We've all missed you. Things just weren't the same around here! :)
Sweet, Sweet Pilgrim,
It is so nice to have you back.
And to have you feeling more confident and assertive and less panicky. I'm thrilled that your therapy at TL was such a success for you. i'm so happy for you!
Hugs and Blessings, Love, Judy
so does that mean since your using the other words and stuff that your coming to be just one person instead of a bunch? do you want them to go away? i hope my questions dont upset you. ill check back later
:-) :-) :-)
Me so happy.
Love,
Your Sis