A day of distraction
I haven't been able to sit still today. I have been doing everything I can to keep myself from thinking. Every time I started to think about the hospital, I'd jump up and go run an errand or go clean something. I even managed to clean out a closet that I have been afraid to open the door to for 7 years!
I am eating a little, self-injuring a little. In sort of a "well, I'm going inpatient in a few days anyway" mode.... so who cares what I do today? In a few days I'll be made to cope in other ways. I might as well enjoy what last days of freedom i have left.
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