working really hard
This week I worked so hard in therapy.
I went to see my therapist 3 times. We were working on something sort of specific. I worked real hard on it. My therapist would give me homework too each day and all of us would work together at night on it to get it done.
It makes me feel better inside to know that I can work really hard on something and not have it kill me.
Today though it was a little harder. I was talking to T and Missy took over. My T said Missy was there for 40 minutes talking to her. And I don't even know what about. That makes me nervous... I wish I knew what Missy said. My Therapist didn't even seem to mind that Missy had been there, almost like she even LIKED talking to her! What did that girl SAY? T said it had to do with what we had been talking about, and something about Missy changing, but that's all I know. I can't imagine Missy ever changing. And all I know was that today it went from 2:10 to almost 3:00 in the blink of an eye.
Last night I had a nightmare that woke me up, gasping for breath and sitting straight up in bed. I had dreams that I was working on artwork on the computer-- working on it in layers, like I do when I used Paint Shop Pro-- and someone kept tryng to save the layers of the artwork with the wrong names. Each piece of the artwork kept getting called the wrong name, and it was messing up the entire program, the entire piece! It was, for some reason, very terrifying in my dream. All the parts need to be called the right name and be saved or the artwork isnt going to turn out right. I woke up this morning practically screaming.
nobody.
p.s. i'm sorry this isn't written very good. i am all strung out on cold & sinus medicine. Since I'm the size of a kid, taking adult cold medicine really knocks me out. This stuff was supposed to be non-drowsy. But I still fell asleep and I feel like I got kicked in the head anyway. I'll try to write better when my head clears.
Next time I want to tell you guys what therapy has been about this week.
Posted by pilgrim | Filed under: Migraines
Hi NB,
I am heartened to read your post about working on T and working 'together' with others to complete your homework. I'm proud of you for facing things with her and getting them outside of you, little by little keep it up.
Will S not tell you or Pilgrim what Missy said??
Are each of you protected by dr./patient confidentiality so that what you say isn't told to say Pilgrim? Then again don't the others overhear things sometimes??
Hoping your cold is getting better. I'm still feeling puny and am in BED, except I let the dogs out (they were howling at some siren..did you know I have a yellow lab (Ginger) who's almost 5 and a White German Shepherd/Husky/something else mix, (Suzie)?? I awoke to both howling inside the house and decided it was morning for them, though it's raining here and I feel like crap and I'm back to bed in just a few.
Keep up the good work...getting stuff out of you that's been stuffed away is the only way to heal from it.
Hugs and Blessings, Judy